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Saturday, November 17th, 2007
5:10 pm	Ultimate SasuSaku 50 questions quiz 1) Your Name? Jessa-chan. <3 2) How long have you liked sasusaku? Since I was BORN! 3) The first reason? Sasuke-sama OBVIOUSLY has underlying feelings for Sakura-san. ;D 4) What is it about them that you like? Angst/fluff mixture. Could expect either one from the two of them. 5) Your perfect image of sasusaku: Little Uchiha babies running free in Konoha's streets. LOL 6) Which do you like more of the two? Sasuke-sama... guilty as charged. >////< 7) Your favorite sasusaku chapter? (or if anime, episode?) ...? I like the scene where Sasuke-kun's preparing to leave Konoha. 8) Your favorite dialog as a sasusaku fan? "Sakura... Thank You." Or in japanesse; "Sakura... Arigato..." 9) Your favorite scene in which you thought "This is so sasusaku!" One of the first episodes where Sasuke compliments Sakura saying she's the smartest on their team; then SMILES when she's encouraged. 10) What would you love to see Sasuke say to Sakura? "You... always made me feel loved... when no one else did... That's why I said... Thank you... that night." (>.<) 11) What would you love to see Sakura say to Sasuke? "...I still love you... Sasuke-kun..." 12) You're glad you're a sasusaku fan when... Everyone else is too. :D Seriously-! Us SasuSaku fans have THE LARGEST fanbase~! 13) You're troubled that you're a sasusaku fan when... NaruSaku fans pop up out of holes in the ground. >D 14) What type of flower do you think suits sasusaku? The Black Rose. ;D 15) A perfect song for sasusaku would be? What I Really Meant to Say... (Don't know the artist... ^^;) 16) Do you think about sasusaku a lot? Everyday. ^^; 17) In one day, how many times do you think about them? At least 800. 18) What's the result of all this daydreaming? Good fanfictions. 19) How many servings of sasusaku can you take? As many as I can get. 20) What's the limit to this pairing? None. It is BOUNDLESS AS THE SEA~!! 21) Any serious problems you faced while liking sasusaku? None, actually. 22) Which (if any) chapter did you think they might die together? ...What? Uhm... NONE. I'm pretty sure Sasuke was going to live no matter what. But when Sakura got stabbed by Sasori...! 0.0 I was like; "Shit. If Sakura dies, Sasuke'll be pretty pissed." *23) If you find yourself with a lack of sausaku what do you do? Breathe, then kill my mom, and take the computer. :D 24) Do you automatically think sasuaku if they both are in a panel of the manga? Mm hmm. Sasuke's next to her; I'm all like; "I just KNOW Sasuke's watching her out of the corner of his eye!!!!!!" 25) Do you think if the're on the same page yet dont meet, they are still comunicating telepathically? ...No... ._. 26) Is there a scene where you think it's sasusaku yet other's dont? Everytime. XD LOL 27) In the future what kind of story arc/development would you love to see for sasusaku? Sasuke's return to Konoha, and slowly, he realizes Sakura's changed, and they become friends... and THEEENNN... ;D 28) A moment where you felt they are already like an old married couple fighting? Whenever Sasuke calls her annoying. Which, let's face it, happen a lot. ^^; 29) (For above) Which was to blame? Sasuke. He might die if he's not careful. 30) Do you think Sauske is the jealous type? Mm hmm. Better watch out, Naruto. Sasuke's gonna own you one day. 31) When in the anime or manga did you find yourself thinking the most: "Sasuke, you DO like Sakura~!! XD" When he confesses that Naruto actually saves her from the sand gauntlet, and she smiles adoringly at Naruto, and Sasuke watches her with a TOTALLY jealous expression. 32) Do you the reason for Sasuke's fast hair growth is because he's perverted? Not at all... >> 33) He does a lot with his sharigan... But he's not looking at SAKURA... Sorry. ^^; 34) Even though Sasuke changed a bit before the last chunnin fight, Sakura still loves him? It's true love...!? No doubt. 8D 35) How many children do you think Sakura will bear? At least 5. 36) If Sakura didn't like Sasuke, who would she like? Probably Naruto. (*took all her strength to write the sentence) 37) Who is Sasuke's bigest love rival? Naruto. Or Lee? Nah. XD 38) Who is Sakura's bigest love rival? Karin? I sure hope not. >D 39) Do the colors black and pink remind you of something sour-sweet? Yeppers. 40) Do you think the colors black and pink are sort of erotic...? TOTALLY! SasuSaku SMEX! *41) You talk about sasusaku so much you think your tounge will fall out? To myself, yes. XD 42) What's the ideal height defference that you think Sasuke and Sakura should have? In the time-skip, Sasuke-sama's like; 5'11" and Sakura's like 5'4" so... he's pretty damn tall. ^^; 43) What can you do for Sasusaku right now? Support it full heartedly without getting into a pairing battle with others~!! 44) When you see 'sasusasu to oishii' on candy packages (etc a similar word) do you immediately think 'sasusaku' instead? Mm hmm. XP 45) (if yes to the question above) Great minds think a like! Banzai! *highfives the author of this quiz* 46) A future dilemma (good, you want to see this...) Sasuke trying to tell Sakura he loves her. 47) A future dilemma (bad, you'd hate to see this...) Sakura dies. Sasuke dies. etc. 48) Tell me a secert that you know of Sasusaku Pssssst. *We have the largest fanbase* 49) What is Sasusaku to you? LIFE. 50) Lastly, what would you like to say to the two as a sasusaku fan? Get together, dammit! >. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Breaking Benjamin; Unknown Soldier (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 14th, 2007
4:56 pm	Graduation, oh boy. I'm just SO excited for graduation. -_- (Self: As in 'Not so much'.) My mom keeps badgering me to have a party and have 'family' over. I'm over here like; "Uhm... I'm sorry mom but... my FRIENDS are my FAMILY. So; up your's, bitch! XP But she insists and once I said no she ACTUALLY agreed (Self: At FIRST. -_-) Then she turned on me with the BS of how much it would mean to my grandfather (whose still grieveing the loss of my grandmother). But I'm here thinking; Uh, it's MY party, and I don't even WANT one, so there shouldn't BE one because this graduation isn't about YOU, mammy!! >D So yeah... anyway, that's really all. Shorter journal than usual. Jessa out! ^.^ Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Silent Hill; You're Not Here (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 10th, 2007
8:36 am	Yeah... been a year... So friggen much has happened since I was last here on livejournal... Humm... well... I'm going into high school once summer ends (actually, my summer has yet to begin. ><)My grandmother died last month, my grades used to be D's but I got them up to C's so the high school youldn't look at me like I was a dumbass. ^^; By friends are either going to better classes than mine or are going to completely different HIGH SCHOOLS! >< My friend Racheal is probably being held back (and is being an emo/dramatic bitch over nothing) Though she does admit I go through more shit than her and don't complain. *rolls eyes* (Self: Hey y'all! Missed ya much! *cough* Not *cough*) And I'll ACTUALLY be going to Texas this summer, unlike last where I was unable to go. ^^; I cut my hair from three feet to like... 4inches yesterday. I have a therapist now. (Self: Oh boy... love her... -_-) Hmm... yeah... life has been on hyper-drive and the real honest-to-God reason I haven't been on is because I've been on deviantart.com and Gaiaonline.com. Yeah... things are more interesting there than they are here. (Self: MOTHERFUCKAHS! >D) But yeah... I'll be scouting for friends here on livejournal soon, so look out world! Jessa and Self are back, ye00! Hope you had a nice year without my freakin crazy journals! :D I forgot how I signed off on these journals... oh well! ^.^ I'm ending here! Jessa Current Mood: tired Current Music: None (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 3rd, 2006
3:07 pm	Raining... and other things... Tis raining: A wise man once said. Actually I'm a girl. Not a man. And I'm not all that wise. I talked with Self again today because it is raining. Here's a conforsation. Self: Hear that!?!? We're getting ice-creame! Yea ice creame! I: ... Self: I really hate this. This IS ice creame were talkin' about here!! ICE CREAME!! I: Feh... Self: You... don't care?? I: Meh. Self: Oh... oh... oh... by the way lady- you're really strange. I: Eh. Self: The conversationalist we all know and love- Jessa! I: Hn. Self: Sasuke alert! You're acting just like Sasuke!! I: ... Self: Cut it out!! I: Nah. Self: Why not!!?? I: Hmm. Self: Ice creame is good for you. I: No it's not. Self: I mean- good for your soul. *heavenly music plays and Self is wearing a halo* I: *record skips and Self is back to normal* That was odd. Self: ... Yes... yes it was... I: Mom was trying to read our journal. Self: I know. I: Total oddness. Self: Yeah. I: ... Self: ... My mother is saying odd things right now. And now I'm going to get ice creame!! Sorry for the short entry... ~Jessa Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: parents talking in background (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 25th, 2006
11:17 am	I Have Returned! And with news... lots of news. Oh please save me now!! My mom is sitting right across from me and she's going on about my signs. Ehhh... please help! She just keeps going on about my sarcasticness. She says I 'inherit' it from my dad. Cha! Right! But- whatever. I give up. Anyways... now that she's done... Lots has happened lately. First off, my Team sort of got switched. The reason why I wanted to change it was because the only person on my Team was Megan. She's cool and all, but both Hannah and Alicia were on Team 2. So I got mine switched. (I couldn't leave Hannah and Alicia alone since my freaky dream were they kiss... ew.) Speaking of freaky dreams. I had one of the freakiest a few nights ago. It was my dad and I driving down D.W Highway, when all of a sudden in my mins eye in the dream, I see a male (about 18 years old) with short black hair blowing back because he's standing on the edge of the bridge. His arms are stretched out and his eyes are closed. Suddenly- he falls, smacks the gorund five thousand times, before a car hits him and he goes flying. He obviously just comitted suicide. I didn't say anything and my dad just yelled: "Oh my God! We just saw a suicide kill!" Even Self was freaked out from that dream when I woke up. Self: What was THAT?? I: ... I'm... not too sure I'd want to know... Self: What... What if that's like... a sign. Our hair is black you know!! I: It was short though... Self: What if we decided to cut it!?!? I: That person had no boobies, Self. Self: Then we cut off our boobies too!! I don't know!! I: Well... it was a man. 18 I think. And... he killed himself. Self: ... I: I don't think we know anyone with black hair. I mean- I've seen a couple of hot guys around 18 with black hair- but... I don't KNOW them. Self: It must be a sign then. I: *rolls eyes* Of what?? Self: That we have to save him. I: ... Shit. Self: W-what? I: I HAVE had dreams about the future before. And they came true. And I always have this odd sense of Deja Vu sometimes. Self: Then I was right!! IT IS A SIGN!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! *runs off screaming head off* ...Yes... that conversation did happen in my mind. And- Yes. Self did cower in fear and run around in my mind. How fun it was. But- with the shower. Oh boy! Now I've got some things to say!! See... I died my hair from black to brown recently. And- I had forgotten that my family has never seen it yet. My aunt saw it first. After I HAD to look and act all dramatic for them to see. Me: *takes hair down slowly and dramatically* OH! H.A.N.N.A.H! Hanah: Yes! J.E.S.S.Y!? Me: LOOK.AT.MY.HAIR! Hannah: *gasps slowly* Wow. It sure is BLACK Jessy! Me: I... know... it... is! Isn't... it... DIFFERENT!!!??? Hannah: Why yes it is Jessy! Did any of your FAMILY ask you about it??!! Me: Now that you mention it- nooooooooo! Auntie Mira: *watches me and Hannah closely. comes over* Your hair. (Self: Chaaa! Somebody actually noticed that we exsist! Let's rock this party right!! I: ... ^^0) Me: Why, what is it fair auntie? Auntie Mira: You died your hair black. (Self: Miss Point-out-the-obvious-a lot! I: I know!) Me: *gasp* I did!?!? Oh. That's right! I DID!!!! *yelled with an angry tone, eyes buldging out of head at other guests* Hannah: ^^0 Auntie Mira: Are you going goth? (Self: What a great reaction!!! Bitch!! 'Oh. You died your hair black. You must be a gothic FREAK!! Let me take over!! I can RESPOND to that!! I: -_-* Let me.) Me: Excuse me? Auntie Mira: Well... I mean- (Self: Yeah! That's right! Cower in fear, bitch!!) Auntie Mira (con): - your wearing black pants- Me: And a WHITE shirt! (Self: Kick it to her! Pimp up on em!!) Auntie Mira: Uh... Hannah: Yeah. She's not planning on turning goth. Me: Yeah. And- if I was- I WOULDN'T WEAR WHITE!! As you can tell- I was pissed. And then my other aunt called me a brat. Hannah told me this. She does not lie. Ok. She did ONCE. But she wouldn't lie about this. I hate my family. And- I think Self and I are growing more attached. ~Jessa Current Mood: geeky Current Music: my mom's talking (witch is actually noise) (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 13th, 2006
4:48 pm	Hello Again... Hi Hi! I know. This is going to be a really short explainition as to where I have been these past couple of days, four words: I have a life! Good bye now! I'll post again tomorrow with news of yesterday because yesterday was the bridal shower! Ta Ta! ~Jessa Current Mood: blah Current Music: Miss You by: Aselin Debison (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
4:07 pm	CHAA!!! OH MY FUCKING GAWD!!!! (Self: Get yourselves ready. She's got news...) Guess what, peoplas!!?? I have gotten my school letter!! CHAAA!! I'm on the blue team, formally known as team 3! Woot! They did the usual school stuff. Spewing bull about how great they think the school year will be. Ha ha! Right! Don't make me laugh! They act all nice and say how much they're looking forward to a great year with new students. (Self: They only say that because they hated last years bunch.) And... I proceeded to call all my friends the SECOND I recieved my school letter. None of them had it. Alicia just went on about how angry she is that she had been looking for her's for the past 4 weeks. Diane said she has been looking every 5 minutes every day because her mail-man is a slowpoke. Then after I told her I got mine, she said she'd check for the mail every 2 minutes. Of course Eric didn't even answer the phone. His mother did. Apparently they had just got in when I called. She spoke to me like she'd known me. Wow. I've never met the woman either. At first she thought I was a girl called Amanda. (Self: Another girl we have to ask Eric about. Bastard!!) Which ticked me off. Bet you could already tell that though. I wanted so badly to laugh at her. Here's the conversation. Feminine Voice: Hello? Me: Hi. Is Eric there? Mrs. B: Hold on a second. *off in the distance* Eric! Phone! Oh. *comes back* He's in the bathroom. Me: Oh. (Self: What an intelligent answer. I: What was I supossed to say?? 'Thank you for the visuals Mrs. Berthiaume!' Self: Sounded more intelligent than 'oh.' I: Grr.) Mrs. B: Is this Amanda? (Self: How dare she!! Who is this Amanda she speaks of!?!? I: It'd better not be the Amanda I'm thinking of... -_-*) Me: ... No... this is Jessica. Mrs. B: Oh! Hi Jessica! (Self: Excuse me, but do I know you?? I: I know! Really!) Me: Hi. (Self: Where to go from here?? Hmm. How about: Well... tell him to call me. Which he'd better! Otherwise your son will wake up breathing through a tube.) Me (con.): I was just calling to see if Eric got his school letter. (Self: Wow. Social much.) Mrs. B: School letter?? (Self: Ohmigod! Are you serious! *snicker* She's dumb as a post.) Me: Yeah. It tells us our team- Mrs. B: Oooooooh! That school letter!! (Self: What other school letter would you get?? ^^0 I: Knowing Eric, probably a PERFECT ATTENDANCE award. Asshole.) Me: Yeah. So I'm calling all my friend's, and so, I'm here calling Eric. Mrs. B: That's sweet. (Self: See?? You're sweet! Eric must not've told his mom much about you. I: You can go now.) Mrs. B (con): Well, we just got in, so we'll check the mail and see if Eric got his. I'll tell him you called. Does he have your number? (Self: Maybe she doesn't know you as well as she lets on...) Me: Yeah. Mrs. B: Then I'll have him call you! Me: Ok! Mrs. B: Alright. Bye! Me: Bye. (Self: She's way to chipper for her own good. I: Amen self. Amen.) It was... weird to say the least. I know he won't call me back. He's so stubborn. He's so stubborn that he's the kinda person that if he falls he'll refuse to get up. So, I'd better go on IM and wait for him to come on. And!! This was the biggest shocker!! I called Hannah, and... she wasn't there!!! GASP!! See. Something you need to know about Hannah. She's always picked up my calls. And- when she doesn't that's a sign of the apocalypse! WE'RE ALL GUNNA DIE!!! Or my friends will wind up on different teams as me. Dammit. I just HAD to say that. I'll blame Self for it. I gotta go!! See ya! ~Jessa Current Mood: giddy Current Music: Miracles Happen by: Myra (Comment on this)
Monday, August 7th, 2006
3:17 pm	Not In The Mood I have a headache. I don't feel like typing. End of story. ~Jessa the dead zombie Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Naruto Main Theme (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 5th, 2006
11:55 am	Wicked Weekend (Dude!) Ola Peoplas! Plans for this weekend are totally kick ass, man! Today my plans are to go over Alicia's. I'm sleeping over and we're going to camp out in a tent in the garage. I knew that statement would raise a few questions. Well, Alicia's mom is worried about us. So, we're going camping in the garage! woot! lol. Then tomorrow night, my mom's taking me shopping for school clothes! Thank God! Now I'm really annoyed. I just remembered that school letter thingy. Grrr -_-*... it has yet to arrive at my house and any of my friend's houses. Everytime I say, bring up, or hear the word school I either think of my hatred for the school board/district or I think of how my goddamn school letter has yet to come. Either one is bound to get me in a mood. *eye twitch* But this song is cheering me up. I'm now listening to 'My Will' from Inuyasha. The full version, not the crappy 1 minute remix. Which reminds me-! I just remembered that I forgot to tell you about this great site I found!! (again... I know...) But it's awesome. I can't remember what it's called right now. But... I'll post it later. You can find like- any song there! I found all my favorite songs there! And they have Japanesse songs too! It's so friggen awesome! I wanna hug the person who created it! I think I will! Chaaa! Anyways, onto other topics of my wonderful life. Self has yet to appear today! It's really great to not have that voice ringing in my head. Cause a week ago she was bringing up school and how terrible it's going to be. But, I think I've scared her away for now! (For now being the key word... ^^0) I become obcessed with songs to easily. This just registered with me right now. There's this new song by JoJo (which I already have on my mp3! ^_-) called 'Too Little Too Late' and I love it so! Squee! Also, I hate songs with a passion just as much as I can love them. Songs like: 'Where'd You Go' and 'Sexy Back' drive me insane. And God knows it!! Everytime I turn on the radio a song that I hate is on. Then I jump ten feet into the air, growl at the radio, and punch the off button. But... I don't overeact right?? He he... ^^0 But... I can't wait to go to Alicia's! Not only cause we're camping out in the garage (that still makes me laugh everytime I say it!) but, tonite a new episode of Naruto comes on! Woot! I haven't been keeping up though. I missed the last newest episode. Not on purpose though. I was sleeping over at Hannah's that night and we were too busy watching Fruit's Basket to remember that we had to watch Naruto. At least they'll play that episode before the newst one! Bye now! Need to go to fanfiction.net!! ~Jessa Current Mood: excited Current Music: Eye's on Me by: Faye Wong (Comment on this)
Friday, August 4th, 2006
11:10 am	Dreary Days... Feh... Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... It is raining... todays predictions for my life... sucky. Very, very, sucky. Feh... Thunder and lightening is included in this rain. I guess you could say it's a storm. Ehhhhhhh... I wish I could go somewhere else. Like... hmm... England or something. It would be MUCH better than here. Even if it's raining. Even if there's a typhoon. Even if I died there, it'd be better than good old New Hampshire. I'm really pissed off at Alicia. Where the hell is she!!?? She usually calls me on the rainy days. But- nooooo!! Not today!! God forbid we call Jessa cause she can just die for all we care!! Damn my so-called-friends straight to hell. -_-* I case you couldn't already tell, today is just not my day. I'd rather die today than well...... live. Cause you know what I do on rainy days when Alicia and Hannah don't call me?? I stare at my ceiling and listen to Self talk to me. Half the time I never answer. Unless I really feel like it, or I get ticked off. So here's what I remember her saying to me for the past hour. Enjoy this pointless talk... Self: You're not yourself today... I: ... Self: You always do this when it rains. I: Eh... Self: Ah ha! A responce! I'm getting somewhere! I: ... Self: Call Eric. I: ... Self: I command you to do so! I: ... Self: Do it! I: ... Self: DO IT! I: ... Self: DO IT DAMMIT!! I: No. Self: Why not!!?? I: Don't feel like it... Self: It's better than staring at the ceiling! I: ... Self: I mean, what's so goddamn special about that ceiling? I: ... Self: Sure. It's bumpy... but that's all it's got going for it. I: ... Self: I really hate you right now. *turns away* I: Ok. Self: GET PISSED OFF DAMN YOU!! I: *thinking* If I don't say a word... maybe she'll leave... Self: I heard that! I hear all your thoughts!! I: ... Self: It's not going to work. I: ... Self: Nope. It won't. I: ... *smirks* Self: Wipe that smirk off your face! It's not funny! Cause it's not working! I: *continues to smirk* ... Self: It's... not... working... I: *smirks even bigger than before* ... Self: It... can't- DAMN YOU!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS SO FUCKING FUNNY!!??? I: *started laughing hysterically* Self: STOP! STOP IT!! I COMMAND YOU!!! DO MY BIDDING!!!! I: *stops laughing* ... Self: Thank You. I: ... Self: Argh! FINE! I'll leave! I: ... Self: Say something! Think something! Do anything but stare at the ceiling!!! I: No. Self: You said something!! Yea! I: ... Self: Damn it all! I hope you die! A really painful death! Like, you wake up to find everyone in the house died cause I took you over in your sleep, and your dog is the only one alive, but then she remembers you killed the others and she kills you and suddenly has rabid fleas, so your forced to kill her too, but then you die an early death moments after cause you got infected with raibes and your parents weren't alive to save you. *said in one breath* I: *leaves* Self: I really do hate you. It was fun to do that! (Self: Was not!!) I'm not even going to argue with Self right now, I'm going to work on a Fruit's Basket fanfiction instead. I'm killing Akito. Hell yeah! Bye! ~Jessa >> and Self Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Sanctuary by: Utada Hikaru (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 3rd, 2006
4:28 pm	Already dwelling on the future... Hello all! ^^ (Self: She only says this when she's gettin ready for a rantin'. Put on your seat-belts everybody!) This month will suck for many reasons. School, starts up at the end of this month. August 29th. AUGUST 29th!!! Dammit! That's like, early! It used to be the School Board said 'Oh... yes! You will be going to school in mid-September.' But, as usual, something changed and the School Board notified NOBODY!!! Assholes. I haven't even gotten the letter from my school that says my classes. Damn them. I'll go check now, cause I fogot to check today actually. Hold on... (Please stand by- *elevator music plays*) DAMN THEM!!!!! I went all happily out into the kitchen. My mother had thrown out all the other mail cause it was junk (other than a movie from Netflix) grr. She said there was nothing important. I glared at her, being suspicious as to if she was telling the truth. Then I stopped glaring cause she turned around. But- back to my original topic... What the fuck is the goddamn School Board's problem! Do they think they're so high and mighty that we non-school-board people must bow down at their feet. You don't want to even know how much my mom had to fight those bastards to get me home-schooled in the 4th grade. I remember it clearly. Then, after a few months, my mom must've gotten sick of seeing me more often and she told me I was going back to school. I can't say I was sad. I hated having my mom be my teacher. She's not cut out for the job. She's real impatient-like. And if you get on so much as one of her nerves she'll rip your friggen head off. I learned that the hard way. My head wobbles from time to time even... ^^0 And another reason this month will suck... I'm supossed to atend a Bridal Shower for my brothers up and coming wedding. I'm a bridesmaid in the wedding and I expected to help with stuff, attend showers of all kinds, and walk down the isle in a fancy dress. It sounds like... crap actually! This is the first wedding I've been in, and I'm as nervous as hell. I have to slow-dance with Melissa's (the bride's, my sister-to-be's) brother. He's 22 and really hot and WAY taller than I am. The reason this is a problem... I'll think he's cute which will make me more nervous than I already am. I'll probably say something really stupid and screw up the dance. Another thing, I can't wear heels. And dance. I can't wear heels and dance. So, Melissa put them both together, and now I'm gunna really suck. I can imagine the mental beating I'll recieve from Self for this. She'll torture me all the time. Saying... 'But, remember that time at the wedding when you-' Then I'll be driven to suicide. Other than that, today was normal. I walked my dog, emptied the diswasher, went to the mall with my friend Yasmine (another one of my best friend's who will be ocassionally mentioned.) and got a shower, watched T.V, and saw The Grudge with Yasmine. I never saw it before, and can't say I'll want to see it again. I will report again tomorrow! ~Jessa Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Deja Vu by: Beyonce feat. Jay Z (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
10:14 am	Mission: Suprise Hannah!! And other crap... Hannah's birthday was a while ago. July 22nd to be exact. And, for her birthday she asked me for Sugar, Sugar Rune volume three. It took a long time to come in. But- it came in yesterday! And- I also have the 4th Inuyasha movie from Netflix!! Yea! Hannah and I both were waiting for it and I just watched it yesterday! So, I plan on calling her soon and suprising her with both of those things. It'll go well. (If the plans in my head come out correctly... ^^0) Yesterday was exciting. The power went out for at least three hours. Leaving me to read, listen to my mp3 player, and listen to my parents attempting to play Yatzee with me. I almost died, but made it out in time. I made the excuse that there was a book that I really wanted to finish. I think my parents are worried about me becoming a Pyro freak. I asked them for a candle last night (so I could actually see what I was reading...) but my dad said no, even after I asked him 12 more times after the first no. They both suck. They're the reason I cannot go to Texas. And the man is keeping us down!! lol. Just kidding. Finally, at like, 9:00pm the power came on. And I flipped, cause I was missing the theme song to Naruto. And I changed the channel (keep in mind I don't have a controller and have to change the channel manually) to finally get to Cartoon Network and I forgot that it was Tuesday and Naruto wasn't on. I was pissed. I turned off the T.V and decided to draw. Until 10:30pm when 'Whose Line is it Anyway' was on. And these past few days I've been able to find all (well... most) of my favorite songs on mp3shits.com! The songs are free and they have an... okay selection. And you don't even have to join the site or pay any money at all. I know I hate sites that say they have free songs, BUT- you have to sign up first at a monthly cost of only 10.99$. Assholes! That's not free! I'm happy to have found that site though. Now... I'm going to fanfiction.net! Bye bye for now... ~Jessa Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Breathe By: Michelle Branch (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 1st, 2006
12:02 pm	Happy August! Happy August 1st everybody! And what a wonderful day it is! I'm actually happy to be alive. Even though last night was a bit of a different story... nevermind. Yesterday I went over to Hannah's house cause she told me she had a suprise to show me. It was the awesomest thing ever!! Guess what it was. You'll never get it! So I'll just tell you... it was... The first 26 episodes of Fruit's Basket!! Yea!! It was so much fun! We spent 4/5ths of our day watching all the episodes. The last 1/5 was spent reading manga and... well... conversing. Then we fell asleep. It was fun. The reason why I wasn't happy to be alive last night was because I couldn't get to sleep. No matter how hard I tried, Hannah would turn on the light to read cause I fell asleep before her. Then, her brother, who so convienantly lives right across from Hannah's room, decided to steal the T.V from us when Hannah had finally fallen asleep. Then he watched Seinfeld at max. volume. Then, when I would get comfortable and all sounds were dead, it became 1,000 degrees F in Hannah's room. (She sleeps upstairs with no fan in the burning hot weather of summer) Therefore, I was forced to sleep without blankets. And- then to make things even BETTER- I wope up early at the time of 7:30. That sucks because, once I wake up I can't get back to sleep. And Hannah sleeps for the longest time known to man-kind. So I went to the bathroom, checked the time, got water, and went back up. Hannah was awake. Thank Goodness. Then we ate breakfast, and now, here I am! Oh yeah! I'm gunna crash and refuse to get up tonite! At least Self left me alone. Oh! And another thing from yesterday, Hannah made us dinner. At first I was worried that I might wake up dead the next morning. Which I would have been if Hannah's mother hadn't been there to tell Hannah when the Cinnamon/Sugar Apples smelled like they were burning. We had ramen, Cinnamon/Sugar Apples, Ricballs, and chocolate ice-creame with tons of chocolate surrup! Hell Yeah! We had a sugar rush and refused to fall asleep until two in the morning. Another Explaination as to why I'm so tired... ^^0 Ta Ta for now! ~Jessa Current Mood: grumpy Current Music: My Immortal by: Evanescence (Comment on this)
Monday, July 31st, 2006
9:41 am	The Family Ages Yesterday was my brother's 26th birthday. And, I'm a horrible family member. See, the other day my mom and I were talking about my dad (he was at work when we were talking...) and mom was going on about how concerned she was that dad might have a disability cause he's not doing as much work and working out as he used to. Thus, the conversation below occured. Mom: I'm really worried about your dad. Both of our blood lines are known for having muscular distrophy. *paces around house, while cleaning* (Self: She's been talking to us about this for at least an hour... -_-0) Me: Oh. *said in uninterested tone* Mom: I mean, he could be in pain and I don't even know. Me: Mom, if dad were in pain I'm sure he'd tell you. Mom: *angry tone* No he wouldn't! He's too stubborn! And he hates it when he can't do thing on his own! Me: You're talking like this has happened before. Mom: It... almost had... Me: You worry too much. Mom: He's my husband! (Self: KILL HER!! THIS IS UNBERRABLE!!!) Me: Mom! Dad's 48 years old! He's just old!! Mom: 46. Me: Huh?? Mom: He's 46, not 48. (Self: Oooooh. Bad daughter!!) Me: Oh crap! *sudden over-dramatic tone* I'm such a horrible person! Michael Pare's own daughter doesn't even know his age! I'm ashamed! *runs into room, fake crying* I didn't know my own dad's age. I know, really sad. Things about my memory. It can come in handy a lot, then there are times I forget the most obvious things. Like what happened to the Twin Towers in nine eleven. (Long sotry... ^^0) Then, Just yesterday, My mom randomly decided to share the fact that it was my brothers birthday. Then, another conversation happened... Mom: It's Dut's birthday. Me: No. Today's the 30th. Tomorrow is Dut's birthday. Mom: His birthday is on the 30th. Me: Oh. Oh Lord Almighty! Why the h.e. double toothpicks am I forgetting these things!?!? (Self: 'Cause you really suck. I: Go away, would ya?!) Mom: It's alright. It's not like we're going to quiz you on weather or not you know these things. Me: But if you did... imagine my score... (Self: A triple F minus! I: Grrr... *sharpens sword blade*) Mom: Don't worry so much about it. Me: *long winded pause* Your birthday IS on March 6th right?? Mom: Yes. Just remember- Me: *under breath* In which case I'll forget it... Mom: - not to worry so much about it. Me: Whatever. And so today he came over. Damn him! I didn't even give him a present, cause I thought I had time. Or, I kinda forgot he even exsisted. lol. Well... I'm gunna leave now. ~Jessa Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: My World By: Avril Lavengne (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 30th, 2006
11:45 am	Weekend Blues I realized something today. That this is my third entry today. And- There is never anything on T.V during the weekends. It's really annoying. I've been looking for fanfictions on fanfiction.net, yet there is nothing to read. Actually, I think I'm a little to tired to go searching for GOOD fanfictions. I'm in the mood for some NejixTenten stuff. And InoxShikamaru I guess. SasukexSakura has drained all my energy and attention lately. HinataxNaruto I could deal with. Kurenai/Kakashi is sounding really good to me right now. But- NOOOOO! God forbid I can do anything fun. I wish Hannah would call me back. I called her and got her voicemail. Watch, tomorrow, when I'll actually have something to do (or if I just wanna be alone) She'll call just because the lord loves to spite me. Which raises the question as to why I don't believe in God. I mean, really. I always blame him for everything bad that happens in my life, and yet I don't believe in him. My dad pointed this out yesterday when I said 'Goddammit!' and my dad said I didn't have the authority to say such things 'cause I didn't believe in him. Which I guess is true. Now that will be haunting my mind. And... to make my day even more of a living hell, I have the opportunity to have the Barney songs playing over and over again in the recesses of my mind. Dammed Baby Videos. Drving me fucking nuts!! Ugh. Well, Self hasn't showed up yet. Thank God! (There's the God thing again... ^^0) I just remembered a conversation between me and my father last night!! Hope you get some laughs out of this. Him and I were walking the dog last night, and we walked by my old Elementary school. Converstion... Me: *shudders* There's something about this school that makes me so... frustrated. Dad: Frustrated?? Me: More like angry... (Hold on... I have to go to Market Basket with my dad. BRB)(Back now...) Dad: Why is this? Me: It has suns, flowers, and colors. They're disguising Hell as Heaven. Dad: Oh really? Hell, now. Me: Hell yeah! (Self: Oh the irony!!) Dad: Continue... Me: Because with MY school now they don't sugar-coat it. You know it's hell because it looks like trash. Dad: Why is your school hell? It doesn't seem that bad to me. Me: That's because you don't actually go inside. If you did, and met the teachers, and heard the amount of work we do... you'd die. Dad: I'm sure you're correct... Me: I know I am! I just finished this survey, and it sucked. I answered all these god-forsaken questions so I MIGHT qualify for ten dollars. But NOPE! I suck and I didn't qualify! Then they said they were sorry. I'm thinkin: I don't really care how sorry you are buddy! I want my freakin 10 dollars! I'm p.o.ed ~Jessa Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Sitckwitu by: Pussycat Dolls (Comment on this)
9:19 am	Am I off My rocker?? Poll #781466 Am I Insane? Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 1 I have an inner-self. Does that make me weird? View Answers totally! 0 (0.0%) not really... 1 (100.0%) nope. I have one too! 0 (0.0%) yup. completely nutters. 0 (0.0%) I laugh at almost everything? Same question as before... View Answers who laughs at everything? you're insane. 0 (0.0%) maybe you're just overly happy? 1 (100.0%) Of course not! You laugh a lot. It's a good thing. 0 (0.0%) yup. you're really strange. 0 (0.0%) Finally, I've thought of killing people before. Again, same question. View Answers I don't think I'm safe here anymore... 0 (0.0%) Hasn't everybody felt like that? 1 (100.0%) I've actually killed someone before. It's normal. 0 (0.0%) okay then... I'm gone... 0 (0.0%) Current Mood: crazy Current Music: We Ride by: Rihanna (Comment on this)
8:24 am	Strange Dreams Alright, this is the first time I've ever had three dreams in one night. I've had two dreams in one night before. Not three. Here are the dreams... Dream 1- As far as I can remember in this dream, it was me going to the Mall with my friend (ex. boyfriend whom I still like...) Eric. Now, for some reason, I was begging him to take me to Claires. (which you must understand, I really hate that store with a passion. That, and I do not beg!) He was just mumbleing about how he really hates that store, but he grabs my hand and takes me in anyway. Because this is a dream, the store was entirely different from how I remember it. It was all pink. As in, the walls, counters, shelfs, even the carpet was pink! And, the outfit I was wearing in the dream was outrageous! It was a pink sun-dress. And I was wearing white mary janes. MARY JANES! Now, for those who don't already know... I HATE PINK, DRESSES, and MARY JANES! Basically, this dream is more like my worst nightmare. (Other than the fact that I'm with Eric...) Then I went looking for a tiera. Do not ask me why. I don't know the answer, this dream was in my mind. Finally, I had found a tiera that had the words 'Fairy Princess' In diamond print with sparkles. To top it all off, guess what color it was. PINK!! Then I woke up sweating. Like in the horror films. lol. I came to the conclusion that Self was trying to kill me, and her only idea was all things girly MIGHT just drive me to suicide. Now... Dream 2- My conclusion about Self was proven in this dream. This dream was just me talking to Self in a really dark room. But I know it's Self I'm talking too, 'cause Self likes it dark, and she kinda has the same voice as me. Self: *wipes joyous tear from eye* Now THAT was fun! I: Was not! I was the exact opposite of myself in that dream!! Self: Exactly! You should've seen the look on you face! I: 0_o You mean that? Self: Yup. It gets better everytime you do it! I: That wasn't funny. Self: It so was. I: You know, one day I'm going to haunt you in your dreams, and you'll be sorry that you ever haunted me in mine, cause I know your greatest fear. Self: ...you do not... I: I do so. I am you. I know my own greatest fear thank you very much. Self: Oh really?? I: Yes really! Self: Proove it. I: Needles. We are TERRIFIED of needles. Self: *shivvers* I: I knew I wasn't the only one hyperventalayting when Jodi wanted us to get our blood drawn. Self: Yeah, but I persuaded you to do it. I: Only because you didn't want to go to the hospital where they hire anyone who even know what a needle is. Self: You're correct. For once. The I woke up once again, and I was suprised that Self wasn't talking. Ha ha ha! Fool! Probably cowering in a dark corner because she's imagening needles coming after her! Or she's asleep. Could be both. Anyways... onto dream number three. Dream 3- This one made absoultely NO sense whatsoever to me. It was my friends Alicia and Hannah. (Keep in mind they both hate each other.) And they we're walking, hand in hand, toward the store together. Now, at the time me and my dad had just left the car to go and get groceries from Shaws. We saw the two of them, and my dad was the first to talk. Dad: Is that... Alicia and Hannah?? Me: Ohmigod... Dad: I was right then?? Me: Unfortunatly yes. Then, me and my dad went shopping, we didn't see them the entire time. Until we were paying and Hannah just happened to have a job there. She was the cashier and Alicia was the bag-lady. Upon leaving, I decided to meet up with my dad later and hitch a ride with Hannah instead. He left. And I began talking with my two best friends. Hannah: Hey Jess. Alicia. Yo Jessa. Me: You guys... Hannah: Wuss a matter? Me: You guys...??? Are you alright?? Hannah: Yea. We're fine. Right, Alicia? Alicia: Sure. Why not. Me: You're sure. No drugged food or anything?? Hannah: -_- Not that I can recall... Alicia: Jessa, are you sure you're not the one who had drugged food?? Hannah and Alicia laughed. Me: I'm leaving before anything else weird happens. And then... they kissed... and I woke up ready to become Emo and slice my wrists for a living. It was scary... Self wants me to die! I don't know why though... Current Mood: scared Current Music: Anything But Ordinary by: Avril Lavengne (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 29th, 2006
9:34 am	Baby Videos You know, I've always woken up early. But- that doesn't nessasarilly mean I'm a morning person. In fact, I really hate waking up, with a burning passion. And I have always hated waking up. Proof, I found just a few minutes ago. I was watched my old baby videos, (keep in mind I spoke words fairly early. I was only 10 months old.) but my mom came in really early in the morning and chose to annoy me. First thing my mom says is "Good Morning!" In the most chipper voice I've ever heard in my entire life. Then, the camera turns to me. I am currently glaring at her/the camera. She tells me to sat good morning and I just sigh dramatically and fall on my butt. And she just kept pestering me constantly, I kept glaring at her and finally after what felt like an entire hour, she finally lets me out. And I walk clumsily into the bathroom to 'fake-brush-my-teeth'. You know. At that age you just pretend to get toothpaste on your brush, and improvise what your parents do. Another thing I did when I was little, was ramble on and on and on. I mean, you should hear me! I wouldn't shut it! I wasn't even speaking real words. I just went on talking crap to my dad. And he took it all in. I mean, at a couple of points I would say actual words like 'book' and 'drinky' but other than that... I seemed pretty clueless. The best thing I ever did was 'accidentally' punching my brother right on the nose. He was spinning me around and I was anxious to get away. So, I guess my inner self kicked in at that age and I punched him, really good, right on the honker. He held his nose, and because he was 12 at the time he began cursing. My mom yelled at him for exposing my angelic ears to such words. It sounded like great fun to be an innocent little baby. Now, it sucks. I'm actually expected to be smart. But then, less was expected of me than what I showed. Self and I had a great talk after watching this home-film. Self: Did you notice the blocks in that play-kitchen. I: Yeah. Self: Well... where were the little plastic foods that come with the kitchen. I: I'm... not to sure... Self: Maybe you fed them to JoJo (he's a little boy who used to be my play-mate) I: Stuff it. Self: Oh, so now you'll treaten to make me eat play-foods? I: Yup. Self: I'd like to see you try. I: Me too. It'd be pretty hard... considering, YOU SHOULDN'T EVEN EXSIST!!! Self: Now that was harsh... *cries* I: Thank you. Self: And what was with you constantly stealing other childrens possesions? I: You must've moved into my body at around that time. Self: If I had the power to kill you I would. I: But, unfortunatly, you only have the power to annoy the hell out of me... Self: I'll try voodoing you. *leaves* Then I told my dad about the video and he was still assuming that I was hiding my best friend at the house. (Don't ask. I'll explain it later.) ~Jessa Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Buttons by: The Pussycat Dolls (Comment on this)
Friday, July 28th, 2006
5:26 pm	Friday... Kohls: Expect Boring Things If you've ever been to Kohls to help your best friend go jean-shopping, then you must've died. But somehow, I survived and am living to tell you the tale. See, me, not knowing all of the mission statement, decided to agree that I'd hang out with my friend Alicia so I could get over my grief of not going to Texas. Alicia, upon me entering the car, just DECIDED to mention that she heard there was a great sale at Kohls. Me, having never shopped at Kohls, agreed. Upon entering you will notice many cute clothes. I wondered why I had never been in this store before. But, when you're broke, it's not really as fun as it would be if you DID have munny. I went around with her and her mother, Diane, trying on millions of jeans. Giving my opinion on EACH and EVERY pair. Soon, I began reading all those notices about 'only five items to try on when using the changing rooms.' and 'if you shop-lift you are so totally screwed!'. It was really annoying. Self finally gave me a break. UNTIL we returned to Alicia's house. Which is awesome I might add! It's HUGE! We got some strawberries and watched our favorite show: Grounded for Life. Then we went outside and played some bad-mitten. I really love that game. But- For some reason I really sucked today. I mean, REALLY. I kept missing on my serves, and everytime Alicia would finally hit it back I would screw up and trip. Stupid fake-grass. Then my favorite shorts got all grass-stainy on me. it really sucked. Then, to make it suck even more, Self interviened! Self: You really do suck at this game ya know. I: Everytime you insult me you're insulting yourself... Self: I know. It's just fun to watch you struggle when I'm mean to you, and for once you can't hurt the person bothering you. I: I'll just kill you again. -_-* Self: *in motherly voice* Violence is not the answer. I: If I'm correct, nobody here asked what you thought. In fact, only I know you exsist. Self: Whatever. Alicia's looking at us funnily. Make her stop... I: I'm sorry. I don't control her mind. I can't make her look in a certain direction! Self: Well then you should work on that. And your badmitten skillz. I: ... The ganstah life is not the life for you... ^^0 I then killed Self, and laughed myself into a coma as Alicia and I watched Whose Line is it Anyway. Then I went home. And now, I'm about to eat my dinner. Chicken Fetachinni Alfredo. Bye bye! ~Jessa Current Mood: lazy Current Music: Broken by: Seether feat. Amy Lee (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 27th, 2006
12:26 pm	You know, this really sucks... Alright. Here's what happened today. My parents decided to crush the rest of my summer into one big boring blob. Yes, a big boring blob, I said. Today I woke up all happy, (which is a change from my normal 'why-won't-the-world-die-so-I-can-sleep-in' mood.) and I pratically skipped out of my bedroom. I took my dog out, and walked back in to hear my parents talking about my trip to Texas, and the worst thing they could choose to say is "Well, she might like that as a replacement." Then self intercepted the rest of my thoughts. (Below is a argument between self and I...) Self: That sucks! We're not going to Texas! Break out the blackmail!! I: Well... let's just see what I'd like as a replacement. Maybe it's shopping!! Self: But your broke. Even if it is shopping those lying bastards are not going to offer to pay for your shopping needs! Kill them both!! I: But... I'll go to jail for that... Self: Quick poll. Does anybody care?? I: But- Self: That's 1,000... no's! I: Nobody asked you ya know... ^^0 Self: I know. I just felt like voicing my opinion. ^_^ I: Well... keep it to yourself. Self: You are myself. I: Shut up! Then I choose to confront my parents. (And now for the conversation with my parents...) Me: Hello. Dad: Hello. Mom: Hi there Jessie. Dad: Where'd you come from? Me: Out there. *points to door with thumb* Dad: Oh. Mom: Jessie? Me: Mom? Mom: We've got something to tell you. Dad: 'We' don't. I've got to get to work. *Leaves, after bidding us ladies farewell* Me: Sooo... Mom: It's about you going to Texas... (Self: That bitch! *pumps fist into air* Down with the world if we don't get what we want!!) Me: *makes angry face* What? Mom: Don't give me that. *refering to face* Me: Fine. *said in sarcastic tone, smiles and makes girly pose* That better. *said through gritted teeth* Mom. Yes. Now... about you going... you kind of... can't... (Self: *annoyed tone* We already know this part... she likes to draw these kinds of things out... ^^0) Me: And why not? (Please note that the smile and girly pose are gone.) Mom: Because you're a minor. You're under 18, and because of this, you cannot fly alone. Unless it's a direct flight. (Self: Who the fuck made that law!!!???) Me: Who the heck made that law!!?? Mom: People who were concerned- Me: That we minors would blow the plane to ity bity bits!? Mom: Maybe... Me: But I'm a girl! Mom: So?? Me: I'm responsible! I could lie and say I'm older ya know... Mom: But it's against the law! (Self: She sounds just like you. *laughs* I: *Kills self*) Me: Since when did minors *stress the word minors* follow the law?? Mom: Jessica Maria! Me: Fine. What can I do then? Mom: They invited you to go on a road trip. (Self: Road Trip?? -_-0 I: Didn't I kill you??) Me: A road trip? With my family? Mom: To the Grand Canyon! (Self: She say's that like it's got meaning... <_>) Me: Umm... I don't road trip with my family. My main resaon for even wanting to go to Texas was to see the malls there. (Self: Now you've gone and made your mom sad by acting like me. I: I am you. Self: To quote you... 'Shut up!') Mom: Oh... okay... *in sad tone* (Self: You really know how to shoot people down when they're feeling bad. -_^ I: I get it from you! Self: Grrrrrr... -_-*) Thus I felt really bad about hurting my mom's feelings. Or... well... hopes of getting me out of the house. Dammned guilt! So I opted to do some things for her. Like... the chores I was never forced to do in my life-time. I got them done, and then left the house to take out the mail in my pj's which at the time I was wearing a large man-sized shirt that went pretty far down my legs, which covered the shorts I was wearing. Then, just to spite me, a really, I mean REALLY, hot guy happened to walk down the street. He made eye-contact with me, as I made eye-contact with him, and I blushed at what I was wearing, and pretended to have left something inside, and muttered to myself. I thought it was convincing. Self thought otherwise. I hate Self ^^0. Anyway... I told my mom what happened and what I was wearing. She didn't get the point that when the guy saw me I happened to look like I had just woken up the morning after having sex with some guy. lol. She was super clueless. But... that was about all, besides that I was on the computer. Bye now! ~Jessa Current Mood: restless Current Music: In The End By: Linkin Park (Comment on this)